书包里的秘密

“不知道什麼時候開始，自己會做自我殘害的事……”
“我們拿著偷來的槍，要替受害的女孩報仇……”
“我從小學就開始看A片，對於性，我有非常美好的憧憬……”
導演在科技大學教學十年期間，看了千餘份學生成長告白，挑選其中三位學生故事，並邀學生一起拍攝製作，以混合紀錄、劇情重演、漫畫與歌舞形式等交替手法，呈現學生苦澀的成長歷程。
參與本片的學生與導演共同重現了三段過往或狂飆或迷惘的年少時光，他們不是一群倍受呵護的溫室花朵，而是一個個美麗而勇敢的靈魂，當他們掀開了多年的傷口與不為人知的秘密，他們已在不知不覺中成長了……。
影片除探討年輕學子複雜人際關係以及家庭與性別暴力外，面對新世代學生殘酷的青春，導演身為老師的自白中隱隱流露出純真不再之焦慮與感嘆。

“I don’t know when it started. But I began to hurt myself…”
“We took the stolen gun and wanted to help the girls get even…”
“I started to watch porn since grade school. I always fantasized about sex….”
During his 10 years of teaching at the University, the director had read more than a thousand of his students’ journals detailing their growth. The director selected three stories and invited his students to document their stories on film. The film intertwines documentaries, dramatization, comics animation, and song and dance to depict the trails and tribulations experienced by the students growing up.
The students and directors recreated the three stories, which recounted the students’ past filled with reckless abandon and bewilderment. The students did not grow up in an environment of utmost care. On the contrary, they were beautiful yet brave souls who revisited wounds hidden throughout the years, and, in the process, grew and matured.
The film explores the complicated inter-personal, family, sexual, and violent relationships of the young students. In his narration, the director, who also happened to be the students’ teacher, expressed anxiety and apprehension as he faced the harsh reality confronted by this new generation of students growing up.

紀錄片是否能拍攝到真實的眼淚？我的攝影機是否傷害到她們？如果全片用劇情片拍攝會不會對被攝者更好？這片子完成能帶給被攝者什麼？她們會過得更好嗎？我是否已毫無保留面對鏡頭說出心裡的話？我為什麼要拍紀錄片？……這些問題讓我思索著，直到我看見被拍攝者看完這部片，對我掉淚並且微笑，我想我已經有了答案。

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